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Advance Valentine's Day

2012-02-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's day by Khairul_Aliffi

A video done by my beloved boyfriend for valentine's day! A pity I had to spoil it so he showed it to me earlier but no matter what, I'm touched by his efforts. I love you and thank you for always putting a smile on my face. Happy Valentine's Day to you my love! xx

Photos

2012-02-02T09:05:00.001+08:00

Pictures from the iPhone

2012-02-01T03:43:00.001+08:00

2012-01-27T01:38:00.000+08:00

Nothing will go wrong when I'm with you.

2012-01-18T00:36:00.001+08:00

Today's been a really productive day because I've improved in my driving and I'm able to u-turn without depending too much on my instructor and also completing various left turns. Driving in the circuit on Friday morning before school and also Saturday in the noon but on the road. So excited! I love driving so much but it's so tiring... But I'll not give up :)

So love waited for me while I went for driving. Always a sweetheart with so much patience. It's like his patience is eternal and won't run out just like how those folktales' witches never grow old! So after my driving, we headed to Raffles City for my CNY bag and I bought it from Forever New! It's just some small clutch and I really loved it even after rummaging through Dorothy Perkins and Topshop which also offered many beautiful ones! And I bought a 2012 Hello Kitty scheduler too! Comes in very handy when keeping track of my driving lessons and also work and UT!

We headed to Swensens for dinner and my meatballs were cold on the inside and they gave us a complimentary scoop each! I had coffee and he had cookies n cream.

To sum it all up, I had a really tiring but enjoyable day and I'm falling asleep soon!
I promise to update this space again so watch this space over here! Goodnight sweethearts!

xoxo

Chinatown

2012-01-16T23:51:00.000+08:00

Roamed around the streets of Chinatown with love today and we were actually kinda relieved that the crowd wasn't as terrible as we expected but the weather was a killer today and by the time we were having dinner at Causeway Point's Texas Chicken, we were all sticky and drained out.

I'm always excited when it comes to festive seasons especially Chinese New Year because it's the time where I get to go visiting to collect red packets and also being able to see all of my relatives again! Steamboat, abalone, and more steamboat. Mahjong, blackjack and poker. These are all the little things that actually get me excited just because it's Chinese New Year! The excitement when you know you are going to be wearing your new clothes, shoes, bags and undergarments on the first 3 days of Chinese New Year etc. This is how much I love Chinese New Year!

Also, this year is a special one too because we have a new member joining us for visiting who is none other than my lovely Malay boyfriend Khairul Aliffi! I'm really really excited now!

So after roaming the streets for the whole evening, I got nothing for myself except BBQ squids @ 2 for $5, a bottle of mineral water, a bag and knit socks. I got for my love a Chinese traditional shirt for him to wear on the first day of Chinese New Year! I was feeling so lazy and I decided to just buy mine from Whatisdope! Hopefully it would arrive before Chinese New Year!

Gotta go sleep now and prepare myself for a long day at school tomorrow and driving thereafter.
Love ya'll!

xx

Another new phase in life

2012-01-15T11:11:00.000+08:00

Just got a call early in the morning from my driving instructor and gosh, he sure is fast because he just booked for me my TP on 27th March when I've only gone for one driving lesson! But anyhow, I'm still determined and not let this frighten me! Gonna do my very best and go for more lessons every week! Wish me luck! xx

Nails for CNY'12

2012-01-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

Just did my nails over at nail palace after school today for Chinese New Year. My first time doing gel and I don't feel any difference. Maybe it'd last longer?

Driving

2012-01-13T12:37:00.001+08:00

So proud of myself because my instructor is booking TP for me most probably end March! I'm so excited but I know I gotta be committed and learn as fast as possible! Jia you to myself teehee

2012-01-12T23:01:00.002+08:00

I'm so hyped for driving tomorrow. Wish me best of luck and not get into any accidents or whatsoever, xx

2012-01-11T00:25:00.003+08:00

Times likes these.

Sanity

2012-01-10T21:36:00.000+08:00

Days in school are always never dull with these people around, at least. Really thankful for every single one of you even though I don't spend as much time as all of you anymore. But you guys are always in my heart. I love ya'll!

Spent my day doing codes and nothing but codes for the upcoming assignment 2. SAD UT 2 after school and went to the library for more codes and then to cwp with Aliffi and Lewis for dinner! Thank you to Lewis for the awesome meal! Everything's in big portion!

Till then,
xx

2012-01-10T00:34:00.000+08:00

Guess I've tried my best to tolerate everything. Been so tired since 28th November 2011. I still remember the date clearly. I did my duty as a daughter, as a sister. I did my best in staying strong for this family. But there's always a limit to my tolerance. Being shouted at when I'm talking about my dreams isn't what I wanted from any of you. I'm sorry, this is all I can take. Just wondering how long more can I hold on. xx

Love & Marriage

2012-01-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

Title says it all. Yes, marriage's on my mind! But I guess it's a tad too early to even think about this when I'm only about to turn 19 but after viewing so many videos of the sweetest marriage proposals to lavish weddings, I really wish to be that girl with the widest smile on my very own day.

I'm wondering how my boyfriend would propose to me or how our wedding would be like! If the person whom I'm marrying is Khairul Aliffi, how are we going to meet each other's requirements and demands of the wedding since we're of different race and religion? Not forgetting our parents' requests and what not. To think of it, it's pretty tiring, no?

Whatever it is, I just hope my boyfriend would propose to me in the most special and unexpected way! I want to hold my wedding on the beach, wearing a custom made wedding bikini! Sound great? Oh! I'd make my entrance on a white pony!

Having said, it's already 1am and I should prolly be going to bed now so I shall start dreaming in a couple of minutes! Goodnight all! xx

2012-01-07T12:01:00.000+08:00

So shopping for CNY clothes yesterday wasn't successful as I bought only a wine red skater skirt.
Met up with my precious cuzzie with her bf for a double date dinner at White Dog Cafe at Vivo! Her bf's treat, THANK YOU!!!
And thakns to Uncle Wang for cooking the meal for us! Had so much fun with them! xx

So today is going to be yet another unproductive day. Sigh.

Guess who passed

2012-01-05T00:02:00.000+08:00

So I finally passed my FTT today. 47/50 is not a very good score but still, I passed so yay for me!

The end of 2011 and the start of 2012 has been very rocky but I guess things are better now and I hope everything just remains this way! I'm going to try to be someone better, more understanding and caring and I MUST CONTROL MY TEMPER.

Oggay enough. Back to 法證先鋒

2012-01-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

Prolly one of the 1001 questions that I ask myself every single day.
Until today. I still do.
And I'd ask myself even more right now that it's clear that someone else is everything that you could ever ask for.

Feelings

2012-01-01T09:40:00.000+08:00

Speechless.

2012-01-01T00:31:00.000+08:00

2011 has been hell of a year for me and honestly speaking, it wasn't that good for me as well as my family. However, we were all very strong to have been able to overcome daddy's stroke together and now that he's on his way to speedy recovery(expressway) we are hoping that he'd recover fully and lead life as per normal again! Also, I hope that all of my friends would still remain as my friends no matter what because well, many factors which I'm too lazy to list down.

Now that 2012 has arrived, I hope that everyone would lead a better life and stay healthy and happy always! I hope for everyone to be free from worries and continue to strive in their studies and work respectively.

My 2012 new year resolution would be

Stop being lazy
Stop procrastinating
Earn more money
Be more understanding towards everyone
Be more caring
Less quarrels with smelly boy

What are yours? :)

Hopes

2011-12-31T01:11:00.000+08:00

Caught "Margin Call' with smelly man today and all I can say is I never fail to always appear silly and dumb infront of this man because I'm always taken in by his words. This show is the most boring ever and a waste of time and money. Definitely not a movie to recommend to any of my friends! Anyway, it's already past 12am and it's the last day of 2011 already! Here's wishing to all my friends and family a very happy new year in advance!

mwah mwah <3 xx

Last Wednesday of 2011

2011-12-30T13:33:00.000+08:00

Pretty much sums up the last Wednesday of 2011. Definitely was a night I did not want to remember. Too screwed. And obviously, Reuben was too wasted even before the party began. Love all of them, my friends.

Screwed

2011-12-30T02:25:00.000+08:00

I guess once in awhile, human beings do err and screw things up but I'd never expected myself to be this careless and screw the night up. I'm going to learn from this mistake and pull up my socks for the remaining last 5 weeks of my second year. 2011's coming to an end and I'd love to end it happily. It definitely wasn't as pleasant but I'm just grateful for the man who came into my life on my 18th birthday.

Just hoping and praying for 2012 to be better.

Nails & Hair

2011-12-25T12:27:00.000+08:00

Hello Kitty? Aztec? Polka Dots? Glitter? Shatter? French?

I'm seriously running out of ideas for my nails becus I've done almost all the designs listed above :(

I so wanna do cosmic/galaxy but I doubt the manicurist would be able to do.

I'm thinking of oranges and fortune cat but it's so..... too chinese.

I'm browsing tumblr right now... Sigh!!!!

And my hair.

I'm gna do my hair at Jean Yip, digital perm. But should I colour?

OH MY GOD WHY AM I IN SUCH A FREAKING DILEMMA

Awhile

2011-12-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

It was really an impromptu plan to head to Butter with @abiable and @mylittlepony! Reckoned that I had to have my fair share of fun too! The queue at Butter was too long and we wasted the guestlists I got for all of us cuz there wasn't any tables available so we decided to head to Zouk! Bumped into @sleeroux! Been long, xx! Headed over to 126 for supper after that!

Blog again soon! xx

Thoughts

2011-12-17T00:24:00.000+08:00

So much have changed for the past few months. Today, I've finally realized and understood the real meaning behind "Talk is cheap". I've finally realized how much I'm worth in all of your eyes. I've finally understood one thing; the only one who was there for me was my dear boyfriend.

None of you came to visit my dad all these while. I know there were words of encouragement and all the '<3' and xoxo and what not but come to think of it. all of these are easy to type, easy to say. But doing something that actually portrays it, that actually proves it? No, I don't think so.

I know I'd get response, I know some would get angry reading this darn post. So be it. Come at me, whatever, anything that makes all of you feel better. And I'm sick of getting all of your sacarstic remarks which are coming at me, hinting that I'm always with my boyfriend. Have any of you been through what we've been through? I don't think so.

It's actually tiring to be feeling this way for a long time. I wasn't born in a rich family like most of you. I wasn't born with money given easily when I want to buy clothes, shoes, bags etc. I wasn't born like ya'll. Everytime I'm asked to go out, I'd have to think twice because I can't spend like all of you. I can't spend money without second thoughts like all of you. So if this fact actually gets to any of you, I'm sorry then because I can't help it.

However, at the end of the day, the images portrayed of myself to all of you would be "I'd only go out with my boyfriend and I don't want to go out with friends."

I guess these are all the bitching and what not but who cares. It's been months since Year 2 Sem 2 started so it doesn't actually make any difference to me now but just writing it down for keepsake...

I do have more to say but Imma just shut my trap before anyone comes over and start hurling words at me.

Goodnight ya'll!

2011-12-08T09:16:00.001+08:00

Which being on Earth wouldn't want to end each day with a beautiful smile? Who doesn't want to? But sometimes, things are so different. Sometimes, a day just ends with tears and frowns.

As much as nobody wanted that to happen, it still lingers in a part of us. So many things have happened in the past 8 months. My life has changed so much. Too quickly for me to adapt. But I still try my best. I tried, and I'm glad I did.

Last night was horrible. It was a night I didn't want to keep in my memories. Nowhere near beautiful, nowhere near perfect.

2011-12-02T00:30:00.000+08:00

I cried myself to sleep last night, with daddy running through my mind. Was he sleeping well? Did he cause any trouble? Did the nurses treat him the correct way and not ignoring him when he needs help? The thought of daddy sleeping alone in the hospital, sick and weak, just sends tears running down. I hate the though of daddy being like this and I haven't had enough sleep for the past few days

And then my happy pill still made it to my house after his family chalet just to be there for me and keep me company. It was already 4.30am when he reached my place and his hugs never fail to comfort me. He never fail to understand me, be there for me and stop me from crying so badly because he knows how to knock sense into me. I'm just thankful that daddy's improving and that I have a very supportive and understanding boyfriend who never fails to be there for my family and myself... I'm really grateful for him :')

But my sleep didn't last long and I woke up at 7.30am because the alarm went off and mommy was waking me up but I was too tired to even move and I went back to bed, giving today's lesson a miss eventually. I woke up, crying, yet again. This cycle has been going on since the day daddy was admitted and I'm really tired. I'm tired of putting on a strong front for the sake of my mommy and brothers but I'd have to hang in there because as an eldest, they really need me to be strong and keep everything going. However, being so tired, he still gave his all; comforting me in his arms with his eyes closed, falling back into deep sleep anytime.

I then told myself to be strong and stop crying myself to bed and wake up crying again and again because whats important now is for daddy's to recover fully so that life would be back to normal again.

Just wanna say a big "THANK YOU" to my Khairul Aliffi for always being there for my family & me and always giving in to my brothers and me. Thank you taking great care of us for the past few days because we really needed someone to just be there... You're the best b!

I love you.

2011-12-01T00:36:00.000+08:00

I still can't believe the fact that our lives are all gonna change forever. I still can't believe that daddy has to undergo physio therapy soon to learn the basics again. I still can't believe that daddy had stroke. I still can't believe that he came home like this on Monday night and I had to call the ambulance. I still can't believe daddy has to take a long time to recover. I still can't believe that things have turned out this way.

I still have difficulties accepting the fact that daddy's down with stroke.

I cannot stop crying whenever I'm alone.

I love you daddy :'(

2011-11-30T23:04:00.001+08:00

Daddy's doing just fine at the hospital. I've just created a blog to keep track and record down his improvement, part and parcel of his road to recovery. Read about it here!

I'm worn out from school, repeating what happened to each and everyone that asked, thanking people whenever they come and visit etc, shuttling between school, hospital and home... I just gotta hang in there for my family. You guys know that I love all of you so much and I'd do anything for all of you.

Most importantly, I love you daddy. Please get well soon. My heart is aching each time I think of you.... I miss you daddy :'(

2011-11-29T09:25:00.002+08:00

"One night was all it took."

Polka dots

2011-11-28T12:38:00.000+08:00

One of the less inspired outfits that'd come to mind on a lazy Monday.

2011-11-27T13:56:00.001+08:00

"My heart, my body, my soul - Khairul Genji Aliffi"
One of the littlest yet best joy in the world is none other than waking up to the hugs and kisses of your soulmate, your partner, your best friend.
Who'd have thought we'd be so in love right now when we first met, when we first caught "Arthur" together, when we had our first dinner together at Breeks. Who'd have thought we'd turnn out to be who we are today. Who'd have thought.
Love makes you do things you never thought you'd. I know this sounds cliche but I'm afraid I'd still have to say it, still. Because it made us who we are today. We're forever crazily in love with each other every single day. We've been together for a few months now and I'm really glad that we're still crazily in love with each other and in the honeymoon stage. I'd never want this honeymoon period to end because this is what keeps me going. Be it in studies or in work, the thought of how happy our lives are now keeps me going and wanting to strive harder.
However, there were times when we had our fair share of arguments and taking each other for granted. I guess I'm the one always picking fights because I'd constantly bring up unhappy events and get mad myself in the end. He, on the other side, would always be so understanding and patient. I'm still trying to change for the better for this boyfriend of mine because I love him so much and the thought of just seeing him unhappy kills me inside. What more, losing him, right?
Just wanna say a big "I love you!" to my malay boyfriend over here. I love you b.... :')

2011-11-27T12:20:00.000+08:00

"Always wanting to get things done the right way but it always turns out.... Wrecked."

2011-11-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

MAC's Russian Red

Island Creamery

2011-11-24T11:40:00.002+08:00

Impromptu plan to head to Island Creamery last night and boy was I disappointed. Guess it was because I chose the wrong flavour. Headed to Vivo thereafter and was disappointed again because the trench skater dress from F21 doesn't fit! Disappointed again because MAC ran out of the shade of lipstick that I wanted. So I went home empty handed with a heavy heart because I still had to beat the boy's high score in temple run. Did it this morning but he came back and took his title. Sigh.

Life has never been greater

2011-11-22T22:54:00.001+08:00

Feels good to be home after a long day in school. Celebrated Aliffi's b'day in advance and our fourth monthsary at Seoul Garden earlier and though it wasn't a pleasant dinner, we still had our fair share of fun while snatching the iPad from each other to play temple run. Its safe in my hands now and I will try my best to beat his high score before going to bed tonight. Wish me the best of luck xx

To my dearest boyfriend, Khairul Genji Aliffi

Life has never been greater had it not been for you. I still remember how we first met, how we first went out for a movie, how we first started dating, how we first kissed, and so many other firsts. Its gonna be out fourth monthsary and your 20th birthday in less than an hour's time and I just want to let you know that I'll always be here for you, no matter what. It seems to others that I'm neglecting them for you but they don't know what shit I've put us through and I just want to make it all up to you. I just want you to be the happiest old man on Earth on this special day. Hope you enjoyed both the surprises and the vouchers that I've given you and please, use them wisely! They're supposed to last you till our marriage! I wanna thank you for always being there, encouraging me, cheering me up when I'm dry and low. Thank you for pampering and doting on me like always, for always giving in to me, for always putting me before anyone and anything else. I'd do that for you, no matter what it takes. So be it if people wanna start blabbering gibberish. Whatever it takes, just to see you smile and be happy. I love you Khairul Aliffi.

23rd November 2011

Happy 20th Birthday my dearest darling old man!

Happy 4th Monthsary! <3

With lots of xoxo

Your wife.

Before I turn 50

2011-11-22T02:01:00.001+08:00

Bangkok, Hong Kong, Cameron Highlands, Japan, Korea, US, Canada(MUST GO!), Spain, France, London

However, I would of course be able to go to the first 3 before I turn 21!

Bkk will be next!

2011-11-22T00:14:00.001+08:00

"Everything is worthwhile, just for you."

Surprise old man!

2011-11-20T18:54:00.001+08:00

Surprised the boy at 8 deg and then to Hard Rock Cafe to chill. Well, not really. Partied? Idk. But I definitely had fun! Hope the boy enjoyed himself! xx

Icing Room

2011-11-20T18:50:00.001+08:00

2011-11-17T22:03:00.001+08:00

Been wondering much. But then again, there's nothing much to wonder about. But my heart's so not at ease.

Thankfully, I have a wonderful boyfriend and awesome classmates.

mwahhhh to you all xx

2011-11-16T22:31:00.001+08:00

"Perhaps you did not realise, it was humiliating as hell."

2011-11-16T14:45:00.001+08:00

"Its not like I wanted myself to be this dumb and stupid my friends."

2011-11-15T21:57:00.001+08:00

2 UTs down, 3 more to go.

FTT 4th Jan, y'knw what this means.

2011-11-14T23:45:00.001+08:00

"Times like these when I just want to undo all my doings."

2011-11-14T11:21:00.001+08:00

Little joys in life.

2011-11-13T23:42:00.001+08:00

Fingers crossed xx

2011-11-12T22:19:00.001+08:00

Loving my hair over here. Result from tying my hair up in a bun for the whole day while lazing in bed catching Kampong Ties Ep 15 and Running Man. So going to perm my hair for the coming New Year! And I'm getting myself a bag from FN soon when mom passes me the Capitaland voucher. I've got F3 vouchers up for grab! Any takers? :>

So I doubt I can sleep early today because I have to wait for bf to reach my house! He's out with his family today! Miss him so much I have to wait for him no matter what. xx

2011-11-09T18:17:00.000+08:00

Donning Christian Audiger today. Dressed down because its home day after school.

Feels good to go home straight after school once in awhile but i'm used to it now.

2011-11-08T21:46:00.000+08:00

Dare you to move - Switchfoot (Jayesslee Cover)

As usual, the twins never fail to sing something awful. So amazed and inspired and guess what? I actually put this song on repeat from the moment I got home till now and I have been singing along non stop with them. So tempted to learn this on the guitar but i'll never get it right. Anyhow, bf taught me a few more chords on the guitar before he left for home just now. I always wonder where his patience comes from because he's always been that patient with me. Okay, whenever it comes to me and almost everything else. Envy much but oh wells. Guess he's in love with my impatience too.

So I'm actually done with Phase 1 of my assignment and I couldn't believe that I actually did everything by myself. Assignment last semester was mostly referred from my classmates hehe. This semester has been a huge improvement and I hope I'll be able to keep it up! *pats on my own back*

I so can't wait for bf's birthday! I wanna make it a memorable one and yes if you are reading this, Khairul Aliffi, please know that I'll still love you even though you're hitting the Big '2'. My old man, I'd still love you because you won't ever age in my heart. You've always been the best and always will. I love you xx

Just caught a mosquito and killed it. God bless xx

2011-11-07T02:01:00.003+08:00

Pretty much sums up my daily life.

Come closer.

2011-11-06T01:45:00.001+08:00

Love of my life

My Soulmate

You're my best friend,

The past 7 month would not be this great had it not been for you.

The past 7 months have taught me valuable life lessons, because of you.

The past 7 months, you have given me so many things that money can't buy.

From meeting the whole family, going the extra mile for me and my family, fitting right in perfectly into my family, always there when I needed you, singing Happy Birthday to darling ahyi on her bday, to going overseas with me and my family, bringing me to Kuala Lumpur for holidays, giving me the best by taking a plane there... So many things, I can't even list down.

You've been such a great guy, not a single bit of you have changed after we've dated for so long...

Sometimes, nights just seem so dull and taking my sleep away from me because you're not here to tuck me into bed before doing your own stuffs. You've always prioritised me and never fail to treat me best, give me anything I want and need.

Thank you honeycomb for everything, I really appreciate all that you've done for me, not forgetting the video of our photos and you singing 'Skyscraper' in the background.

Missing you more than ever toninght, I miss you babyboo xx

& I love you so much!

2011-11-04T22:44:00.001+08:00

The weather today finally permits me to wear my trenchcoat from F21 that boyfriend bought for me 2 months ago! How I wish Singapore would snow and I can wear it almost everyday and everyone wouldn't look at me in disbelief. Yes, I know Singapore's humid and warm and stuffy and what not but today's weather's been really fair to me so i'm just doing this trenchcoat justice okay?

Good old days

2011-11-03T23:48:00.000+08:00

Met up with my darling girls @dreasssy and @katherinys for 925 chicken rice and sembawang rd's beancurd city! Had a lot of catching up about our lives and studies now... Just wish we would meet up as and when, now and then for catching up so we wouldn't miss out on each others' lives! Love both of them so much! Great friends like them are hard to find!

Also, had a great time laughing at kat's snort when she laughed hysterically, when she interviewed patients at IMH, when she recognised the wrong person on the mrt and much more. But proud of her cus she's actually in a Nursing course in NYP and she's doing great! Proud of my dreassy as well, just wish she would be able to be a successful interior designer so next time I can consult her for cheaper price(or maybe free) when boyfriend and I are getting married and buying a big house. Yes, a big house!

So that pretty much sums up how my day was and it was great to talk to these two sampats for 4 whole hours!

Love ya'll! xx

Just got home and i had to blog down today's catching up for keepsake! Waiting for boyfriend to come home now... Can't wait for him t get here! Have so many things to rant and talk to him about! Always my listening ear, love you boyfriend(if you're reading!)
Will never stop loving you.

'I will be under the mistletoe, with you.'

A thousand years

2011-11-02T20:34:00.004+08:00

"I have died everyday waiting for you"

When I say I'm mad, I'd expect you to comfort me and not walk right through that door.

When I say I'm mad, please, don't ever expect me to speak my thought because you knew right from the start that i'm not good with words like you are.

Love is not expecting me to do exactly the things that you want me to or those that you're good at.

Just want you to remember how hard it is for me sometimes.

I don't think its very hard, no?

Halloween'11

2011-10-31T22:50:00.001+08:00

Self-sewn cape with armholes/BBQ/horns/spear/latex masks/coke/peach tea/monopoly deal/failed trick-or-treat attempt/in-between/texas poker on the ipad2/checking arsenal vs chelsea score/laughed/perspired/treasured/cherished

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.H.I.P

Don't know what life would be without all of them and of course Weikang and Elaine too!

2011-10-29T00:35:00.001+08:00

Insecurities always get the better of me.

fuck.

2011-10-27T09:50:00.002+08:00

Donning f21's chiffon blouse and necklace bought by boyfriend today! Work for the past two days had been great and my colleagues are very friendly too! Its the 28th tomorrow which means Laura Ashley's pay is coming in! Bought a charm bracelet, rings and necklace from work place yesterday! New collection would be launched next week. I'm so excited to receive my new set of clothes from them too! SAD module today & i'm falling asleep :'(

Halloween BBQ house party at Chang's this weekend! I can't wait cus its been a long time since all of us gathered! And its good that we're gna be at chang's cus her house is the biggest, nicest house uh! Love her bedroommmmm, mwahhhh!

oggay, i gtg. see ya soon!

2011-10-25T10:00:00.002+08:00

I'm hooked onto vacations with babyboo. No joke. So wanna plan another one to Batam and all the cheap deals on deal.com are forever tempting me. Or should we just go back to K.L? hehe I'm sure my babyboo here would love the idea so he could go back to KLCC to his all time favourite Ed Hardy store! I so wanna go back for the wanton noodles hehe

2011-10-25T09:24:00.000+08:00

Ring; F21, Chiffon outerwear & harem pants;Misc, See-thru top;flea, Shoes;Zipia, Watch;KL Chinatown

Hi all! It's already the last day of week 3 and boy, how time flies! It's my first day of work at Forever New today and I can't wait to see what nice pieces of clothes they're giving me to wear for work! Can't wait! And the pay is rather good as well, I just can't wait. And the fact that the manager is a pretty friendly and outgoing person kinda gives me a sense of relief. I bet working there is gonna be so much fun!

Operating Systems module today and the fact that the faci talks mono makes me so sick of the lessons but i'm gonna do my work anyway since my grades are on the better side! Have got multiple A's already and I'm pretty satisfied with myself :>

2011-10-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

I feel you, i feel your blood boiling.

2011-10-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

Had a really long day at school today getting familiarized with the retail SAP system and it kinda gets to me that the whole team has to wait for one another because we can't do the processing all at the same time. Well, kinda cleared my head out. I shan't be bothered. I just realized I just wasted a post before this speaking gibberish but well, thats what one would do when you're constantly bearing a grudge against someone and you just can't seem to understand why in the first place but then again! I've got lovely Khairul Aliffi(who is way better than my ex), my lovely family(who also adores my bf) and lovely friends in school. Who cares if life was hell back then? Life's good now with the boy who pampers me like nobody's business and I don't really wanna care anymore. Like what the boy said, nobody said shit about me(but body odour did, shall just forget about it) so i shouldn't talk shit about others. Oh! I should probably get going and choose my outfit for school tomorrow! Let's go! xx

Next stop; BATAM!!!

K.L & Desaru checked!

Karma

2011-10-24T16:06:00.000+08:00

None of my business but i'm gloating over how affected you are by his ex gf sending him an event text!
Well, i'm happy deep inside to see how agitated and furious you were when his ex gf made a commotion when you two got together.
Remember 3 years back?
How you made my life hell together with your Body Odour bestie and the forever self-proclaimed Christian bestie?
Yes, those were the days, huh?
Well, its time you got back what you've given to me though.

This is karma, short bitch.

You know who you are and I really hope you're reading this!
Pls do get angry, okay?

Ps: come up with new words will you? from start till the end, you've been calling people whom you dislike 'sluts'. Whats new?

Desaru Roadtrip

2011-10-23T20:30:00.000+08:00

These photos pretty much sums up my perfect weekend getaway at Desaru. Especially with the company of my boyfriend and lovely parents and Norris. We'll definitely be going back there again :>

To die for

2011-10-20T14:27:00.000+08:00

Creeper shoes for CNY'12 sounds gd? :>

Imma get mom to buy for me from Underground! But I'm afraid by 2012, new designs would be up. So I should probably hold on to my horses for the time being.

If I had all the money in the world, I'd buy anything and everything that catches my eye.

2011-10-20T10:12:00.000+08:00

SAD module tdy. Someone save me. But I might end early today!

Webcammed with @daphhhhh ytd in class, we were in the same team and she never fail to confuse me with her blur attitude.

Nevertheless, love her still xx

2011-10-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

Damn I think I love that boy, do anything for that boy.

Oh, killing me softly, still the one I need.

I'll always be with you.

Don't ever let me go.

Its been a long day for me! Went for interview at Forever New today and I got the job! I can't wait to start work! The pay is better and I get free clothes every month because they launch new collections every month! Which is very often I would say.

Well, things are improving for me. Its taking a turn for the good. Which is great because I need something good in my life. Well I have the best alr, just want good things too. hehehe, i know, i'm greeeeedy!

Oh, I love you Khairul Aliffi. If you're reading this hehehehe :>

My malay boyfriend!

3 stars

2011-10-18T14:10:00.000+08:00

Second week and I've already got 3 'A's! My hard work has paid off and it feels really great to see 'A's in my daily grades :)

I'm so proud of myself I can just go on and on about this.

GAHHHHHHHHHHH :>

Softly

2011-10-16T22:52:00.000+08:00

Its been two weeks since the start of year 2 sem 2 and I am so proud to say that Aliffi and I are doing just great in school! We're studying hard now and I've got my first A in the first week alr! Can't wait to check my grades for the second week and damn, I just hope I get as many A's as possible! And I wna get at least 2 A's for UT1! And of course do well for my web app assignments in time to come! Have been so stressed up these few days and I just hope all these troubles will go away soon. I have absolutely no one to turn to except for my boyfriend and boy am I glad to say I have him. He's the best; always treating me like a princess! Even Elaine says that he pamper me a lot and I'm glad that he actually does but just hope that he won't overdo it sometimes!

I just can't wait for the weekends to come because Aliffi is tagging along with parents and Norris to Desaru for a short getaway and we really need one so I guess it'd help us both to fine tune ourselves. Shall be back with the pictures we're gonna take in Desaru so in the mean time, goodbye :)

Right here with you

2011-09-29T17:04:00.000+08:00

Often asking myself what do I want to achieve in life. What do I want to do when I grow up? Where do I go after obtaining my diploma? What do I do?

The boy often asks me what are my dreams? I have absolutely no definite answer to his question because I'm confused about what I wanna do in the future. I daren't think about it...

But I know the present definitely counts and I'll start to pull up my socks in my studies. I can't afford to lose out anymore and I definitely hope I can stick to this promise I made to myself today for the next 15 weeks. Gotta work extra hard from now on.

What do you want in life? :)

38.8 Deg Celc

2011-09-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

Been lying in bed for the whole of today. Had high fever and went to the doc's. Took antibiotics and lots of other medicine and I feel much better now... Pray that I'd get well soon! Its been a long time since I last fell this ill :'(
27 mins more to 12am and baby's gna end work..I miss him so much and I wish he's right here with me now.... :'(

23.09.2011

2011-09-23T05:10:00.000+08:00

Happy 2nd monthsary my love.I'll be right beside you, for as long as I would.I love you.

Pictures talk

2011-09-21T10:45:00.000+08:00

Right. So the boy and I have already returned from our K.L trip and boy it was fun! From delicious nomz like wanton mee, bak kut teh, hokkien mee, tom yum soup, loklok to great finds at petaling street and returning to a cozy hotel just makes life seem perfect, even if it was just for a mere 4 days.

However, stuffs at KLCC was expensive. It's just like their ION Orchard. And the minus point was there was an Ed Hardy store so guess who spent $$$ there?

Counting down,

2011-09-09T16:26:00.000+08:00

6 MORE DAYS TO A PERFECT GETAWAY WITH THE PERFECT BOYFRIEND.

CAN'T WAIT.

In your arms,

2011-09-04T18:39:00.000+08:00

Holla everyone! Currently bored to death at home. Famz just went out and headed to Tiong Bahru for dinner but I'm giving it a miss. Going over to Elaine's and have late dinner with her I guess. Watched the best movie last night at Elaine's too. The title is "Taken". After watching the show I felt like giving Kim a tight slap on her face! Your dad sacrificed so much for you, went through so much danger just to save you from kidnappers and prostitution and all you could do was "I love you dad", shed a few tears and go home with your mom and stepdad. Enough said bout the movie! The boy came over to my place to stay over too! Finally! I love when he does little things just to see me smile. Because I always tend to cry like a baby whenever I miss him too much... I guess it'd happen tonight again :<
Been researching a lot on food, shopping and attractions in K.L. And also the LRT routes and what not too! I've noted down the various stations to alight to go to certain landmarks/places. Just wanna make this getaway a perfect one for the both of us. Its the least I could do. I love you Khairul Aliffi! <3
Okay, i gtg go off to @elainekohyiling's now! xoxo

Getaway

2011-09-03T15:40:00.000+08:00

Its a Saturday today. Yet I'm at home. The boy's out visiting with his family. So I can only resign to fate and stay home today!

Been listening to a lot of songs, watching shows but my laptop is getting older, sucks, reading bogs and what not.

Last night I read a Malaysian food blog and I've already written down the addresses of the places I wanna eat at when we're in K.L! The first one would of course be the beef noodles! Then bak kut teh, wanton mee, hokkien mee... *droolz* nomz!!!

I have nothing to say anymore. 12 more days to the 15th! And we're gonna fly to K.L! Can't wait!

Miss you xx

For awhile

2011-08-31T01:03:00.000+08:00

First of all, wishing all my muslim friends and my boyfriend Selamat Hari Raya. It's only the first day and I can't stop thinking of the guy who never fails to put a smile on my face. In times like this, I just wish for him to be right beside me, combing my hair and tucking me into bed. And then I'll wake up in the morning, to his scent, his kisses and his hugs... But it seems almost impossible because he's busy and I understand the situation he's gonna be in if I demand this and that from him so I'd just have to bear with it for a little while and everything will be back to normal :')
So what shall I do tonight? Bad Teacher's waiting for me on Funshion. But I am in no mood to do anything. Its been a boring long day for me. Today's definitely been one of my worse days. And the fact that I'm missing the guy up there too much does not help at all. Sigh!
B, if you're reading this, do know that I miss you like crazy and i'm about to cry! :'(I love you, I miss you. xoxo

Wonders

2011-08-25T00:31:00.000+08:00

It's 12 midnight now. I have Datacomms UT at 2pm later on. I have not opened a single 6P to revise. I have not mastered the art of calculating subnet masks and assigning IP address. Lets just drop it, I'll study after one proper post. Promise.
With Jayesslee on the current playlist, drinking my digestive tea and reflecting on the past years. Ever since I decided to take a step forward, to leave vincent, I've been asking myself what have I been doing for the past good 2.5 years when I was together with him. The time spent on mahjong, the time spent slacking under void decks and at 755, the time spent doing nothing at home could be put to better use like studying and doing something more meaningful. Towards the end of the relationship, I finally realised that I had to let go no matter what because it wasn't because of love anymore. It was just plain dependency. It was just plain habit. My friends were all his friends. My life was just all about him and our friends. I felt as if I was rotting. A few good years of my life were just wasted like that, gone like that. Enough said.
Well, ever since Aliffi and I got together, life changed for the better. No. It changed for the better when I had great friends in school especially Reuben, Lewis, Wei Kang, Ming Chuan, Tong, Chang, Abi and Daph! The wake up call came after my first legal club at Zirca with Reuben & Co. I couldn't believe how I actually opened up to them about how unhappy I was in the r/s with Vincent but they were actually the ones who made me realized that I deserve better and that r/s wasn't healthy for us at all. And now, my life is close to perfect with Aliffi around. He's a good friend, a good companion, a good & doting boyfriend. I wanna call him my husband so badly but no, we shall save it for the future when it really happens and if it happens.
Shit happens in life. At some point of time, your life gets outta control. At some point of time, you don't realize what you're doing could hurt and disappoint. I've learnt my lesson and I definitely have much regrets but I thought I should not dwell on my mistake anymore and just move on and learn from it. At that point in my life, I was overwhelmed by all that night life, all that partying and alcohol. All that attention, all that fun. But it could just ruin something beautiful, something precious, something dear. All these takes a lot of self-discipline and self-control. Thinking back, its really scary. If you offer me a million bucks or an offer to be a rich man's daughter to go back to that point of time in my life, I wouldn't want to. Over my dead body.I just love the way my life is now. I love the way I am now. I do not ever wanna go back....
I'm just really grateful for my boyfriend :') Always never fail to put a smile on my face, always never fail to give me the best of everything, always never fail to understand me, always never fail to give in to me. I know I've been a nuisance and an idiot for the past few weeks. Even up till today. Yet he tolerates my nonsense, he never mumbled a single word about it. And I definitely love how he wakes me up from my nonsensical and irrational thoughts and actions. And how he composes songs for me. Just for me. But he just wouldn't send me those songs. Dang! But oh wells, I still love him much and never will I stop loving him. I can't promise you forever and eternity. But I can promise you that as long as we treat each other right, as long as we remain cool when we have quarrels, as long as we don't take each other for granted, as long as we go thru thick and thin together, I'd always stand by you and not leave you behind. You have my word, I promise. And I know its hard to trust. I know his heart's at stake. But all I can do is to show him that I've really learnt from my mistakes and that I'd never do something so bad anymore. All I can do is to let time heal. Time will do...
Alright. Its 12.30 A.M right now. Gotta get back to studying Datacomms. Wish me best of luck, xx.

Hurt

2011-08-22T21:35:00.000+08:00

Pain. Heartache. Tears. Troubled.

Sudden

2011-08-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

Just received news that my bbg @elainekohyiling's ah ma passed away. I'm still in shock, called her omw home from the movies and cried with her on the phone :'( I feel so angry and frustrated that I couldn't be there for her and her family and also to pay my last visit to ah ma. I still remember how bbg and I massaged her feet together while she lay on the bed, telling us all about her journey in life. When she fainted in the middle of the night at home and woke up, acting tough, speaking in English that she thought she was acting in a drama serial. Ah ma did not really had a good life in her younger days. She worked and worked all day long. But she was lucky and contented enough to have Ah ye. We could all see her gratitude towards Ah ye. We could all see how much she hung in there despite being so sick. I still remember when I went to bbg's hse when ah ma was still in Singapore, she would sulk and complain to me that she had nothing to do being cooped up at home everyday and that Singapore drama serials were boring. She was bored to death at home. She would smoke at home like a big boss, she would smile at everything. Sigh. And i did not even pay her a visit before she left for her hometown. And yet, today I received news of her passing away. Well, many of you may say i'm not related to her. But she just reminded me of my late grandma. They were exactly the same. And by exactly, i do not mean similar. They looked almost the same, they shared similar life experiences. And as bbg and I spent quality time with her, massaging her, tears welled up in my eyes that instant. I could never forget that moment and I'd never forget her smile.

I'll miss you mama and ah ma, rest in peace.

:'(

Ribbon

2011-08-21T15:57:00.000+08:00

Got this headband from myautumnmoon again! Saw her at the flea @ Scape yesterday and I bought it in wine and @elainekohyiling bought it in bright red. She gave us 10% discount off and its only $3.50! I lost my previous colour and I've been wanting to get it again so I was delighted when I saw her booth yesterday! Stayed home today, read through 6Ps and am going to have curry for dinner today. I bet half of Singapore is cooking curry today. Lets just sit back, relax, enjoy the curry while that China woman goes to all the town councils or maybe better; go straight up to the President to complain about the aroma of curry suffocating her.
Meanwhile, back to studying and food.

An August Saturday

2011-08-21T02:00:00.000+08:00

Spent my day revising for Database in the noon with MacDonalds' Pepper Chicken McGrill for brunch. Went over to the nail parlour and got my nails done. I chose tribal patterns this time round as it was kinda unique to me. Thankfully I did not decide on Hello Kitty though I love it so much. But it just wasn't enough, like I felt something was just missing if I insisted on the Hello Kitty design. Chose turqoise for the pedicure and boy do I love that colour. Went to the flea at Scape with @elainekohyiling and bumped into @dominicduckie as well. Snapped a couple of pictures and left for Expo to fetch honey from work. I got upset and started being a bitch after seeing how his colleagues reacted upon seeing me. Thinking back, I felt silly. Nevertheless, I was really pissed at the fact that their reaction was kinda rude. It sure wasn't what I expected.
Went home an upset girl and am going to sleep an upset girl. Life's never easy, life never was easy. A mistake could just lead to unhappiness every now and then. A moment of folly took trust away, took happiness away.
August, please be over soon? :(

Flightless bird

2011-08-20T13:42:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's been a long and tiring day for me. With only 5 hours of sleep, I woke up late because my alarm didn't ring. I felt so bad my buddy was waiting all alone at Woodlands Interchange for me. Went for 3 UT clinics straight in a row without breaks. Even going to the toilet would be a problem. Went home, watched Julie & Julia and napped for an hour before doing the chores. Life ain't easy.

With UT 3 coming right up on Tuesday, I definitely have not much time left to pull up my socks but I can't seem to stop procrastinating. In another one and a half hours' time, I 'm going to do my nails. Which means wasting 4 hours in the nail parlour, just sitting there, watching TV.

Pictures

2011-08-17T12:49:00.000+08:00

The long awaited semester break is here. After enduring for 15 weeks, this should be our well deserved break but no. UT 3 is coming up in less than a week which means I have to start revising and stop procrastinating. So yesterday a few of my classmates together with the boy played soccer at Kallang's The Cage. I pretty much liked the concept and the only disadvantage is there was no air conditioning! I wasn't running about and I felt so sticky I had to take a shower. I hate feeling dirty and sticky especially after perspiring. Okay, I shall stop sidetracking. After which the boy and I headed to hg mall to print our PP Posters and I got so mad at the service staff my blood boiled.(Okay, this is just a metaphor, I dint literally put myself on fire)Enough said about that stupid staff. And I remembered the boy telling me about superb milk tea at his friend's newly opened Taiwanese Bistro and I had cravings for Taiwanese snacks yesterday so we decided to go there for our dinner together with Hasan! The milk tea's really superb and the salted crispy chicken tastes good too! Planning to go there for dinner again with my family and also tong, yang and the boy too! The ambience is good too. I want to go back there again soon! I want to drink the milk tea again... Thinking bout it just makes my tummy grumble. I'm gonna go downstairs and buy food back up to eat. I'm famished!
8° Taiwanese Bistro!

Salted Crispy Chicken Bento Set

Even the bottled Cokes are adorable!

Milk tea!!!! Must try!!!

Moments

Pretty woman

How

2011-08-13T14:13:00.000+08:00

Have you ever been condemned for the mistakes that you did? You know you're not gonna repeat it ever again.

You understand that people's trust in you isn't there yet but at the same time you want them to trust you so badly.

You understand that they have their own reasons why the trust is not there. But at the same time, you just want them to feel at ease, to be happy with whatever you're gonna do.

You understand its hard for them, but at the same time, you feel condemned.

Tell me what to do?

Appreciation

2011-08-07T23:23:00.000+08:00

Thank you for stepping out of your comfort zone to my family's chalet! I just hope you had fun as well!
Thank you for helping out although you are the guest as well!
Thank you for everything hun! xoxo

Missing you so much, right now... :'(

Love you, Khairul Aliffi! <3

Take flight.

2011-08-05T00:21:00.000+08:00

School's workload is increasing as we're coming near to the end of the semester. I still have the PP posters on hand to complete and also revision for the upcoming UT3 which weighs the most percentage in all of our understanding tests. Its just like the EOY exams in Primary and Secondary school.

I never fail to get butterflies in my stomach whenever I think of UT3. It just sucks knowing that you didn't put in your best effort during lessons and yet, you hope you'd get good results.

However, I must say, my attendance for the current semester has improved tremendously and I am proud of myself for this.

The boy and I were down with flu for the past few days and we're still coughing every now and then. It really sucks to see him this way. My heart aches seeing him like this. And it sucks even more when I'm not a doctor to cure him of his sickness.

Ever since this guy stepped into my life, it couldn't have got any better. My life's at it's peak now, I must say. Great friends around me, no more bad company!

Not to forget a great boyfriend who never fail to dote on me like there's no tomorrow, always giving in to me, always understanding me, always taking extra good care of me and also feeding me with good food!

Although he's fasting, he still made the effort to send me home before going home to break fast with his own family. How sweet of him! But my heart would always ache when I think of him going home alone.

Its Friday! The boy's gonna give me a morning call to eat and I'm going to fast with him till 7.30pm! I think it is 7.30pm if I'm not wrong.

I just hope I'd be able to hang in there. hmmmmmmm.

Okay, gotta go catch Running Man!

Ciaoooooooooooo :)

Fate

2011-07-31T01:15:00.000+08:00

Its been 2 months and 21 days since we've been dating. Its been 8 days since the day we're officially together as a couple.
This man here, never fail to put a smile on my face, even when he's down, when he's torn apart deep inside his heart and even when he's fallen ill.
He never fail to make me feel loved, never fail to respect me as a young lady and hates to see me going home alone.

Everything still seems so sudden to me. Few months back, we were just friends. Normal friends. And we started to hang out. And then things started to change.
We'd catch almost all the movies together, just the two of us. Snuggle inside the cinema like how other couples would. But when questioned, we'd always say we're not together as a couple.
Right now, we're stuck like glue. Meeting each other almost every other day. I guess we really can't imagine what's life gonna be without each other huh? :)

The fasting is going to start tomorrow. I don't know how to survive this month without eating and drinking in front of him but i'm still going to try my very best. Just for him!
I know things aren't going to be smooth-sailing for this month but we'll go through everything together, maturely! We will :)

Okay, back to running man!

Busybee

2011-07-27T00:03:00.000+08:00

Life has been pretty hectic for the past few days. With the submission of Assignment 2 together with UT2 and my FTT as well as the PP poster, I think I'd need a getaway badly! During the semester break! I'm really in need of one...
Assignment 2 is due tomorrow, and I have to take my FTT tomorrow as well after school. There are like 1001 things to worry on my mind. Adding on to the worries would be money! :(
Money's running out! Its been long since I last worked due to too much manpower. Sighhhhh, I'm now working as a part time maid for my mom.
How pathetic can my life get? But I'm lucky and blessed to have Khairul Aliffi, my boyfriend! He's my pillar of strength! <3 I know he'd always have my back.

Well, the start of July definitely wasn't pleasant at all. All's over now and I hope that the days ahead would be the best days that are yet to come.
With Khairul Aliffi by my side, I've nothing to fear anymore, nothing to worry about anymore.
I think I've grown quite a lot, in terms of my mentality and mindset. All thanks to him, always brainwashing me! But I'd still love him anyway.

hmmmmmm I LOVE YOU KHAIRUL ALIFFI HEHEHEHEHEHE <3
I know you'd be reading this, please smile! hehehehehe
ily boyfriend!

23rd July 2011

2011-07-25T00:28:00.000+08:00

Cabbed all the way from wherever you are to surprise me by bringing me to Sakura for dinner just to ask me to be your girlfriend.

You are such a sweetie. Words can't describe how grateful I am to have you.

You have my word that we'll be together for as long as we would.

I love you my boyfriend, Khairul Aliffi <3

Underneath the shade of moonlight

2011-07-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

Finally! UTs are finally over. For the time being... This means I have to finish up my assignment 2 asap and PP poster! And my FTT... So many things to do, so little time. :(
So I wenta Ikea after school with babylove today! We had meatballs, chicken rice(something like that), chicken wings and Daim Cake! A pity the Daim cake was too sweet for me, I can't take sweet stuffs! Too badddddddddd.
And b was so sweet tdy! He took 168 back to Woodlands with me just to let me have a shoulder to lie on when he can take a straight bus back home from there.
Tell me, how can I ever find a better and sweeter handsome hot guy like him? Oh em gee. I don't think I can.
Tomorrow we'll all be in the same class, I love Wednesdays! <3

Okay, I really need sleeeeeeep.
Goodnight all!
xoxo

2011-07-19T02:35:00.000+08:00

Have you ever felt like killing yourself for letting ur mind take over your body instead of having self discipline?
I'm feeling like that now actually. I always fail to finish reading/studying for my UTs and it kinda sucks. Maybe to some of you, it doesn't really matter but it matters, at least to me.
I'm always procrastinating. When can I actually pratice self-discipline and do something productive once? Just once.
I just got my first E for a UT and I can tell you, I don't feel good. I'm gonna study in class tomorrow and finish up everything. I need someone to teach me.
I really need guidance! I'm feeling pretty stressed and fucked up now.

FUCK.

Small

2011-07-18T02:30:00.001+08:00

There's this little insecurity inside of me. Tell me how to get rid of it.

Journey

2011-07-17T22:49:00.000+08:00

Khairul Genji Aliffi

You are the kinda person who would do anything for the girl he loves.

You're patient, caring, filial, calm at all times, mature.

You're always at your best, you don't lose your temper easily.

You're different; you like to stand out, you want to be unique.

You're charming; you're musically inclined.

You always put others before yourself, you want people to feel good too.

You're special, in every single way.

And then you found me.

You told me I was pretty, adorable and hot with an irritating voice.

I beg to differ. I don't always feel that good about myself.

I'm hot tempered, I bear grudges.

I like to throw tantrums, I like to make things difficult for others.

I'm immature but I'm growing right now because I have you, thank you!

I hurt you, I caused you pain but you were forgiving.

I could not express how I feel.

I'm always self-centered but I'm learning to think for you now!

You've changed me into a better person.

When we started out as friends...

We went out in groups for sheesha with Fareez and the rest...

We went for our first movie 'Arthur', just the two of us.

I still remember you said 'Like sexy onlyyyy' to me...

We were texting each other every single day at this point of time.

And then we went to watch 'Thor' with Fareez, when you first lent me your shoulders :)

And then Fast & Furious 5 with Fareez again, too.

This time, not only did you lend me your shoulders, you kept me warm because it was cold.

You rubbed my hands with your own.

You sent me home in a cab and then cabbed home yourself.

You were memorising my block number and when I asked why, you said you have to familiarise yourself with my area.

I was happy, very happy!

Then we went to Soul & Ibis with your friends.

We were watching so many movies every week!

And right now, alll I want is to be with you every single day...

Thank you for taking such good care for me.

Thank you for taking the initiative to talk/play with my brothers.

Thank you for being there for me.

Thank you for doting on me.

Thank you for doing almost anything/everything for me.

Thank you for changing me into a better person.

Thank you for treating me like a princess.

Thank you for teaching me valuable life lessons.

Thank you for being part of my life.

Thank you for making me happy.

I love you, my prince charminggggggg!

2011-07-15T15:02:00.000+08:00

I don't quite know how to put this into words but....

MY BABY IS JUST FUCKING HOT AND HANDSOME WITH SHORT HAIR! FUCK! I CAN'T RESIST LOOKING AT HIM ALL THE TIME WHEN HE HAD LONG HAIR. FUCKING DELICIOUS. NOW? SHORT HAIR. SHORT HAIR. SHORT HAIR.

ALL THE MORE I CAN'T RESIST LOOKING AT HIM. FUCKING HOT. I SWEAR.

OH EM GEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Jiggly July

2011-07-14T22:30:00.000+08:00

The start of July definitely wasn't good for us, at least to me. And I know the past week was a torture for many of my friends and myself :( All because of my stupid mistake. I know we'd never be able to forget but I can am trying my best to move on from the mistake, learn from the mistake.

I'm happy now that things have taken a turn for good and i hope things would remain this way, as long as possible! So glad that my life's perfect now. With true friends, with buddies, with my Khairul Aliffi... What more can I ask for? :) Just that I was having moodswings today and decided to partial in the end and went home with baby! We watched K.L Gangster and even video-ed baby's singing! So adorable can! I showed it to Norris and he couldn't stop imitating baby! Hilarious much, I swear! And we took a few photos.. A pity Norris dint want to join us... :(

Well, tmr's Friday... Lesson starts at 12.30pm and there's UT after school But its okay! Baby's gna accompany me home after UT and we'll have dinner at home with Norris and then stayover at his place tomorrow night! I wanna watch so many shows at his house can!

He's getting a hair cut now. I'm so gonna demand a mms picture of his new look! Can't wait! I think I'm even more excited than him...

SAY GOODBYE TO UR LONG & VERSATILE HAIR BABY! <3

Ily :)

Khairul Aliffi

2011-07-13T23:15:00.000+08:00

I love you so much, Khairul Aliffi.

WHEN CAN I SNUGGLE WITH YOU? :(

Millions of gratitude

2011-07-13T00:26:00.000+08:00

Thank you for giving me a second chance. Sorry for causing you hurt, sorry for causing you pain. I love you and you have my word that i'm letting you down no more.
I love you baby :')

Thank you to Lewis, Reuben, Chang, Tong, Abi, Daph, Elaine... All those who have been there, you know who you are. I could never express my gratitude towards all of you. I'm thankful for second chances. Gonna thank God before I sleep later on! :')

Goodnight :')

2011-07-12T00:31:00.001+08:00

I don't know why I can't stop crying. I don't wanna be just friends. I don't wanna fly like a bird with freedom. I don't want other guys. I just want you, Khairul Aliffi.
I'm giving you time, just please don't push me away to others. I don't want to...
I guess I just have to live with this until the day you decide to take another step forward... I'd just have to wait... :(

2011-07-12T00:01:00.000+08:00

The past week definitely wasn't good for many of my friends and myself... The mistakes I did just let everyone down. I disappointed everyone. I'm sorry...
Now all I ask is for trust. I know I can't earn it overnight but I'm gg to keep trying. Keep trying, keep holding on. No matter how tired I would be, I would not stop trying.
I don't know how but I know one thing for sure is not to keep anything from all of you anymore... I'm afraid already... I'm really afraid of many things now...
I need to learn how to take care of myself from now on... I gotta learn how to, no matter what...

And to Khairul Aliffi(if you're reading this),
I'm glad you gave me another chance to be friend with you. But I just wanna tell you I'm never giving up. No I'm never gonna give you up...
I'm going to keep trying my very best to earn back your trust, to get back with you. Yo te voy Amar. :')
Its awkward to be talking to you like how we did before we were more than just friends. Somehow it kills me inside but i know I can't force.
I gotta live with it. I'll be strong, I'll fight for you. Because I love you and I will definitely not let you go.
I miss you. I miss us. I really do. And I hope you do too!
I want you to call me 'ah bee!' again. I want you to call me 'b' again as much as you don't like it you still call me that...
I want you to pinch my face wherever I go again.
I want you to tickle me and force me to say 'sorry handsome darling' whenever I disturb you again.
I just want you to know, I never wanted us to end this way... I'm gonna fight for you.
I love you, I miss you.

I know I gotta face everything in school still. Those with or without doubts. I don't wanna care anymore. I'm really tired...